"I want to talk today about one of my favorite subjects lately which is self-encouragement, self-love, self-approval, self-motivation, any way you want to call it. It's so "easy" to start anything when you have a huge loving family. It's so "easy" to achieve success when you have a lot of friends. It's so "easy" to go to the top when life does not throw you extraordinary challenges like developing a food disorder, cheating of your spouse, forced moving, etc. It's so "easy" to be number one when your mental health has always been stable. It's so "easy" to succeed when nothing major is ever on your way...
The reason I keep putting "easy" in quotations because we all know that it's never easy. Even if she seems to have it all, we never know the whole story. Even if we are mad at God, at the world and even at people who confuse us more than anything, it all had to happen...
I question every day why America did not happen like I imagined. I question why my marriage had to even occur... I question every day will I ever be in stars I want so bad.. But then I do it. I work. I create. I transform. I write. I meet. I inspire. I achieve. I get recognized. I grow. I learn. I get better and, finally, I realize all of it had to happen like it supposed to happen... All of it: small town, USA, small town guy who never learned to embrace the city girl or a city girl who never learned to love a small town guy, losing my mind in a different language completely, losing myself to be like somebody else's culture, completely failing myself and slowly rising up again - all of it happened to happen. All of it...
Here I am today struggling every day to do things that majority of the world don't give a damn about. But I do!! I believe wholeheartedly when I write I am living out my destiny. So many people to this day have told me: don't do this, change that, just stop. But I believe that one day even if it's after I die, I will be a proclaimed writer, speaker, performer & maybe even a talk show host. I believe... When no one cares, I believe in my heart that what I am doing is right. I know that I am raising stars along the way as well. I see you, dreamers, living your dreams. And it makes me happy... so happy...
And this is, my friends, how my self-motivation happens. Like today I did an incredible interview with an amazing artist. And no one told me I did a good job... No one... Time and time again I do videos and no one tells me they are good. Only I can say to myself: "They are good!!" I don't really say anything to myself. I just watch a few seconds of the videos, and I know that one day they will be noticed by many. One day... One day...
Thousands of you don't know that the very first video I made was in October, 2012 on YouTube. It's been 7 years, and I still haven't made it according to my standards. 7 long cold hard years... How many more years is left?? How many years?????? I remember Laverne Cox said it took her 20 years to get that big role in a TV show. She said that when she wanted to give up and go to school instead an opportunity came her way. How inspiring. I just love it!!!
I guess, I have 13 years to go.... Oh help me, God!! It's so hard day after day to create, create, create all solely. I must be crazy... And so many of us out here creators, writers, artists, etc. must be crazy... We believe when no one else does that the world has recognized our talents already in our minds. The world just needs to recognize us in reality. And then it finally happens: the break through we all want. Will it ever happen to me?? I don't know, but I believe!! Please do the same. Watch me as your example. I share with you stuff like no other. If I can do it, you can too!
Do it, if no one is watching. Do it even if it hurts. Do it even if you have no money to eat, but you believe that one day you'll have a personal chef. Do it even if you have only 3 people at your event, but you believe that one day you'll have 60,000 at your arena. Do it even you can't afford a gym membership, but you believe that one day you'll have a personal trainer. Do it even if no brands, magazines, newspapers, TV shows ever call you, but you believe that one day all of them will want you. Do it even if you feel alone and misunderstood, but you believe that one day you'll have the whole world following and supporting you. Just do it, baby...
And one day you'll have it all. You'll have it all sooner than you think. Believe in God's timing, my love. Everything happens like it supposed to. Do you believe?? I believe in myself and in you!! You can have anything you want... just believe and work, baby... Why not you??" Marina Amdream